He loves me he loves me not

whos out der dare any body lysten to what i got to say maybe not cus its kinda sorta crazy n my brain only i can put togetha such words dey make me look like i sound kinda good i wanna go there to that place were im happy were im herd were the plp celabrate me sining on my self but as i feel it it feel good but it hurt i learnd to fall madly inlove wit the pain he cut me he burned me n i moaned wit pleaseure i beged him to stop oohhhhh no dnt stop keep goin stab me again set my soul afire brreak my heart breat my heart treat me as if im nothing i love the pain ill love u jus killl me jus slice up my arm like u did heart i usta cud tell the diffrece between pain and pleasure only thing that keeps me goin is the repetion of 1 Corinthians 13:4 in my head n i kw he loves me n i kw love isnt spose to hurt!

Dreaming so vividly

i had a dream i was runnin from 4 young men n they were tryna rape me i kept runing so fast untill i realized i was dreamin so i jus jumped of the 5o story building i was running arnd becus for sum reason that was the only way...and dreammoods says if you are running from an attacker or any danger, then it suggests that you are not facing and confronting your fears but i dnt kw what it cud besides growing up n liveing life there is no drastic drama n my life at the moment im n skool i have all the wrks n un heartbroken kinda but its like im liveing and settlein for less n i jus go that feelin were i wanna be done with life already cus im stuck settlein for less n i hate it....there was alot more goin on such as jumping over shit like super women which means that i will eventually achieve your desires and goals after some effort and struggle.but thats the problem i dnt wanna try i jus want it all handed to me but i guess i kw what dis mean huh?? till later i guess