shhhhhh

i seacreatly love her (no homo shit like dat)but i love her be cause she kw who she is and who she wanna b and what shes's liven,,, for she has beauty and brasins all i ever wanted...and her shit togetha n dats one thang i dnt she's all around beautiful no shes not fashion model beautiful but shes the girl next door i love my best friend beautiful...she;s everything im not and everything i wanna b dnt get me wrong i love me but im like a classless version of her and she go get wat she wants while i sit around and wait for it to happen but hey when u do nunen for a long period of time sumone asking you to do sumthing is one of the hardest thing on earth ,,,, ima get better doe slowly but surely

Never Was A HERO

all i wanted to do is b a hero all i eva wondered n life was y is der so much pain n da world wen i was younger i thought i cud change it i was so sesitve i cried wen i saw fights becuse i wonder y dey wud wanna hurt sumbdy n y dey was so mean to each other now dat im 18 i still dnt kw y i never can get dat mad even if i wanted to i always cryed wen sumone screamed at me it hurt me ive been called a crybaby i jus was sad cus i had to witness all da hate n pain da world plp told me der story n i cried bcause i saw n felt der pain dey held n side i jus wanted to reach nto der soul n take all da pain away n i kw if u take all da pain sumwere it will have to go sumwere i wu take it all i will suffer wit it nside me jus to see everybody happy n ive noticed dat dat sounds like sumone i kw n dats Jesus he's already done wat ive ben tryna do my whole life n dats b a hero to everyone n anyone dat had pain nside dem but i noticed dat i dnt have dat kind of power all i eva wated to see happyness bet u like how cud sumbdy b so sensitive how cud sumbdy not wen i love sumbdy i love hard n wit all i got i never hold back so now i see myself wishin i cud play God im not a hero i jus wish i was i wish i cud take all da pain 4m da world away but never will i ever have dat power i bared dis cross 4 so long n its heavy im ready to let it go never will i ever b a hero myb jus mayb i learn to pray n give thanx to da reall hero i jus want da pain of and n da world to end!!!