I love em!

so yea i was chillin wit a friend today p.s hes so choclate n sexii lol jus how i like em but he was playin beautiful gospal musik n i jus felt so far from God lysten to that musik i mean n dis horrable world i kw sumtimes plp think he isnt real n when im dwn n out n feel like blamein sumbdy besides me i say he came b then automaticlly say sorry i kw he is cus i kw dats jus me bein ingreatful talkin ...wow i ramble alot i got off subject kinda...but anyway he play plp get ready a gospal song idk who sing but i kw i song it alot n the choir i mean its tru when they God gives u a talent n if u dnt use he takes it away cus i usta sing beautifully lol now i dnt even like the sound of my own voice tlkin but the one really tru reason y i kw for a fact that their is a God is because she loved him n she belived him she is my stepgrandmother best person i eva met . i think my life wud be way better if he wuda let her stick arnd but i guess it was her time i was so mad for a long time when he took her away i still think of her to this day im tryna change for her she was the only person besides God himself i looked up to ....ok i got more to say but i gotta go back to class ..one compleate thought i love My God so me becus he love me back wit no conditions ....

i never waas a hero

all i wanted to do is b a hero all i eva wondered n life was y is der so much pain n da world wen i was younger i thought i cud change it i was so sesitve i cried wen i saw fights becuse i wonder y dey wud wanna hurt sumbdy n y dey was so mean to each other now dat im 18 i still dnt kw y i never can get dat mad even if i wanted to i always cryed wen sumone screamed at me it hurt me ive been called a crybaby i jus was sad cus i had to witness all da hate n pain da world plp told me der story n i cried bcause i saw n felt der pain dey held n side i jus wanted to reach nto der soul n take all da pain away n i kw if u take all da pain sumwere it will have to go sumwere i wu take it all i will suffer wit it nside me jus to see everybody happy n ive noticed dat dat sounds like sumone i kw n dats Jesus he's already done wat ive ben tryna do my whole life n dats b a hero to everyone n anyone dat had pain nside dem but i noticed dat i dnt have dat kind of power all i eva wated to see happyness bet u like how cud sumbdy b so sensitive how cud sumbdy not wen i love sumbdy i love hard n wit all i got i never hold back so now i see myself wishin i cud play God im not a hero i jus wish i was i wish i cud take all da pain 4m da world away but never will i ever have dat power i bared dis cross 4 so long n its heavy im ready to let it go never will i ever b a hero myb jus mayb i learn to pray n give thanx to da reall hero i jus want da pain of and n da world to end!!!

loner

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cant pray

Sumen happen long da way as she grew up for sum strange reason she grew dumb n blind cus once opan a time she saw things clear but as she grew her vision started to fade see the glass she was lookin out of was once clear but sumone jus kept throwin rocks called heartbreak at da window n da glass is jus so cracked she cant see out da window anymore so she continue to look n pretend all is well pretend thers no crack but shes cryin and her vision is blurd cus she cant see threw da tears she try to pretend dey arnt der laf laf laf n jus joke offd da pain as if wasnt eatin her alive "oh no fuk dat ima big girl now" she said she said whats da point of prayin when u feel guilty when u do cus im un worthy of him keep forgivein me when i kw deep dwn ima keep doin it isnt it any wonder i kant be blessed but shes said she love him and she keep a wantin to ask for things but feel she dnt desrve em but mayb she dnt but she shud try praying again i jus dnt wanna b sad again ...i ment she dnt shes tierd of cry

it hurt so good

the pain is startin to fell good to me cud i dare b this awsome wit no flaws at all but i do i dared to love sumone n thought they loved me back but they didnt they love the way i felt on the inside he said he loved me but yet i felt so empty i cried damn near everyday i haue grown so accustemd to the pain i startd to like it or at least think i like i cause pain to myself cus i have no clue on how to b happy ive cried for help from beast n the all mity now what jus enjoy the pain while its last
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Kid Cudi - Don't Play This Song

i am sin

im sin does dat make me a bad person , i smoke weed and i love it i watch porn cus i refuse to have sex does dat make me a bad person , i tell my lil brotha to shut the fuk up does dat make me a bad person ,i kw n say evvery curse word eva made am i a bad person i masterbate uncotrolably am i a bad person i eat jus cus its der does dat make me a bad person i flirt to get what i want i make others feel bad for makein me feel bad does dat make me a bad person i lysten to rock n roll i lysten to country i lysten to rnb n rap does dat make me a bad person lmaooooooooooooooooooo i cheated on him wit him then ended up lovein him then he broke my heart den i likes him but he dnt like me am i a bad person let me know plz let me kw